December 2011
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pah:
what if cats have internet too
and it’s full of pictures of us
And her perfect sky crumbled and fell
That shitty moment
when you realize how unrealistic your hopes always were
don’t let the sun go down on me
Not attracting the wrong people,
but the not-you people.
Working working working tomorrow. I’m very much looking forward to making money again, even if I have to wake up much too early.
Random list of good things
Walking outside when it’s so cold your eyes tear up
The way trees look in the sunrise
Cello bass lines in songs by The Beatles
Socks
The way mist settles in a valley
Salted chocolate
The ocean under a full moon
A perfectly broken-in saxophone reed
Moments in certain songs that always give you goosebumps
Curry
Down comforters
Eating everything from mugs
Crossword puzzles
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Learn to identify a good number of stars and constellations.
A- in Arabic
Feels good, man.
Home
let’s see how this goes
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C'mon, c'mon
with everything falling down around me I’d like to believe in all the possibilities
Let’s hope it’s never too late.
On a happier note...
I sent some anonymous Happy Season/Holiday/Christmas cards to random addresses. Hopefully it brings some small bit of happiness to the recipients!
Sometimes I just want someone to listen. Not interject his/her opinion, judge, offer advice, relate, or solve my problems. I want someone to listen just so I feel like someone understands and knows how I feel. How selfish is that? Sheesh.
It sucks that you can tell how stressed I am and how little sleep I’ve been getting just by looking at my hands.
“A veces me siento perdido
Inquieto, solo y confundido
Entonces me ato a las estrellas
Y, al mundo, entero le doy vueltas”
“Sometimes I feel lost
Restless, alone and confused
So tie me to the stars
And I’ll turn the whole world”
the sun is up
the sky is blue
it’s beautiful
and so are you
My roommates having a group hug and sitting around talking about how much they are going to miss each other and how sad they are going to be over winter break because they won’t be seeing each other every day.
Me not joining in and leaving the room as quickly as possible.
I’m an awful person.
samaralex asked: It was the opposite of everything I liked about the show. It was completely dumbed down to TERRORISM BAD! They rushed it to be the first fictional show back on the air after 9/11 and I thought it was completely opportunistic.
I love seeing people drive by with Christmas trees on their roofs.
Dusk
I like walking around the peaceful parts of campus
slowly but surely I am emotionally self-destructing
“But for now let me say, without hope or agenda, just because it’s...”
– Love Actually
Not settling will leave me an old, lonely cat and book and tea lady. I’m okay with that. I’ll live somewhere that’s cold most of the year and own lots of sweaters and take walks in the woods and people-watch and enjoy all the little things.
Why don't you say how you really feel?
Oh yeah, because people like to take your heart and ideas and throw them on the ground and stomp on them repeatedly and grind them into the dirt until all that’s left are little squished up chunks of gross heart and the shattered pieces of imaginings. How are you supposed to dream without those ideas intact? Who’s going to want a heart when it’s been mashed up into a chunky pulp...
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I think I want to be an Integrative Biology major. It’ll require math (and Physics, unfortunately) but I think I’m willing to put up with that so I can take classes like medical ethnobotany and introduction to quantitative genetics. I could still completely change my mind, I guess. It’s not like I’ve taken any useful classes so far. I’ll have a lot to make up science...
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Go to Disneyland when it’s all decorated for Christmas.